lazy bones

Although I am sick right now, I still have been extra lazy lately. I was thinking about how late I sleep in the morning when I came up with this line in my description, "If living was better then dreaming, maybe I wouldn't be so lazy." Im sure everyone can relate to time in there life were they don't want to get up to go to work or school. Especially when they were having an amazing dream. Its just that lately every dream has been more apealing then my life.... even if its about stupid stuff.
See, one of my problems is that my main job right now is working part time for my Mom. She has a nice company that she started from scratch in our living room and now currently supports about 8 full time and a couple part time employees in a fairly large office. The point is that I get the luxury of creating my own schedule. Therefor I can sleep in as long as I want, which usually is till around 10-11am, and I can randomly take days off or leave early if I have something else going on. Some might consider me lucky, but I am starting to realize that it is ruining my work ethics and creating a very lazy life style. I don't want another day job because this keeps me around computers and learning thing somewhat in my field, plus the pay is good. But I should find a job at night or work towards my career in a new way.
Im sure the people who have the great careers or the perfect people to share their lives with don't quite have the same problems. Currently those are (or at least should be) my main goals in life right now. I would be lying if I said I am happier now then last year about this time when I was still with my ex-girlfriend and doing new things towards my career. Right now I am just desparate for someone new to share my love, and my life with. I think once I have that happyness back in my life, I will be more motivated to work and to wake up in the mornings.

Who will love me?
Your dream girl.
Where is she hiding?
In your dreams.
When will I find her?
When you dream.
What will I do then?
Live your dreams.


... is that a poem?! damn, I must be getting desparate! lol